After 22 years of pain management with opiate pain pills, my doctors stopped my prescription at the beginning of the opiate crisis. Even though I was in constant pain each month when I went to pain management, I pulled myself together, dressed appropriately and showed up for my appointment on time. I did not abuse my meds and did what the doctors asked me to do when they asked me to do it. I tried many alternatives as the doctors advised, but they did not help with my pain. I tried over the counter pain medications, exercise, transcutaneous electrical nerve stimulation (TENS) unit, epidurals, and shots, but nothing has worked for me.
I’m divorced and live alone; my family did not provide any kind of support while I was and still am going through the worst time of my life. I do not know why, but I think it could be because they are still on the pain meds while I am not. My family does not acknowledge the opiate crisis, and we don’t communicate any more. I’m angry with them and I’m angry with the doctors. I could not understand why my world had come crashing down and the lack of support made me feel like I didn’t deserve to live. The thought of ending it all was becoming overwhelming, but I somehow got a grip and I’m still here telling my story.
This is why I am sharing my story. After 22 years of pain management and seeing doctors, I have not been back to get an opioid prescription since I was denied. I fear that I’ll be judged as an opioid addict. Although I’ve tried everything, there is nothing doctors can do for my pain without opioid pills.